“Probably. I will inquire. ”
“We did not choose a film now. Would you say if we were both in the newspapers this week and we have something that works well for both of us to find sounds. OK?”
“It would be great, I say, and I wondered how I would survive until next Saturday.
Looking back on that now Donna was exactly the person I needed, and even today. At that time, she saw something in me that they wanted, and they read it, knew exactly what I needed to get started. They took control without any penalty. That, they understood that I needed a boost, and what type and when and how, but they never did so in a threatening manner. It felt like a partnership from the beginning.
We bring together a movie. We shared corn, joined arms and legs, and about two-thirds of the way through the film, she reached over, took my hand and held it in her lap.
I never let go.
He did it quietly and without comment. It was easy to tell your non-verbal with me, we could hold hands and do other things too. It was just the perfect guide for a shy teenager.
We saw a movie the following Saturday as well. I felt no memory of what we have seen, but I vividly remember the joy of quiet, but profound, that I sat next to her from base.
During the week between appointments, I fluctuate between near-ecstasy, safe in the belief that we were always together, and sometimes doubts dark fear that I had misinterpreted the situation, or I wore said something or done, she might have offended. In retrospect, everything seems stupid, but I had absolutely no experience in this field. I had no frame of reference for interpreting and understanding what was happening.
I am still puzzled to explain my shyness and inability of women at that time. In class and in other guys, I was in control, competent leader, and able to tell you, if necessary. Put me in the face of a young woman my age, though, and I was almost too shy to talk about themselves.
Time in our school life is tough: it was enough.
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